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omg im soo fuckin bored i have NOTHING to do and i am prolly gunna be grounded for like 2-3 weeks tomarrow for me grades. so ehhhhh i already cant leave the house cept for skewl for like 2 weeks but u konw that was for homecoming. so yeah. and yeah so im super board. and yeah i hope that the next like 5 days go by really really really really really really really fast because yeah ima be grounded from teh computer fone and leaving the hosue. well maybe i mite be able to go to kelseys but thats about it. and thats only bcuz she lives close ta me. so yeah. idk i dont even wanna ask my gramma is so pissed about the whole homecomign thing but i didnt mean for it to hurt her hto u know? *yawn yawn* im so tired i think ima go to bed soon or something thats all ive been doing lately is sleeping and umm... sleeping lol. idk well actually like sleeping and eating and shit. adn yeah so im bored and very tired
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| hola |
[13 Oct 2004|05:25pm] |
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ok yeah my brother pisses me off sooo fuckin much i just wanna stab him!!! ugh i hate him. hes gunna tell on me for being on the fone and im gunna get in even more trouble. and then after confreses oh god i will be dead. im already grounded from leaving hte house because gramma and grampa found out about homecoming. i tried to explain why i lied to them but they wouldnt listen. i mean i really did do it for there bennifit not mine. well ok kinda mine but still... i just didnt want them to get so mad at me and like freak you know? but htey did anyways idk its weird bcuz like i didnt tell her and niether did andy but she just kinda figured it out all by herself. so like yeah....... and like grrrrrowl... lol idk im SSSUUUPPPPEEEERRRR bored lol.
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| at jesi's house` |
[09 Oct 2004|12:24pm] |
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hi im at jesi's hosue rite now and shes cleaning something and im on here. yeah ok so we had fun last nite. we went over to sleep at nicks house and jesi and kelsey said that they were sleeping at my hosue and i said i was sleeping at kelseys house and jacklyn said she was sleeping at nicoles house. and yeah so we all actually slept at nicks hosue lol. :) because we're special like that. and we went to the game and we had fun although i lost my glasses :( i couldnt find them anywhere! gramma is gunna kill me oh well.... i hope i find them sumtime. anyways then yeah idk i had a LOT of feelings last nite. and i think i mite like ryan singleton :-/ idk tho. but yeah sooo yeah idk lol. and yeah i was mad at jesi and kelsey for a total of like 15 minutes because i thought they hated me which i was totally wrong about. because i asked htem to come look for my glasses with me and they didnt answer me so i thought that was a no and i also lost my id so i couldnt get into the game and so i had to sit out there with shelly and robbin. (which wasnt at all bad) and then jesi gave nicole 2$ to get in and then nicole came back by me n shelly and robbin adn said she got money and was going in adn shit and then she was like "yeah so im going in not u melissa sorry" and yeah so idk i thought they didnt even notice i was gone... idk tho. and yeah so me n shelly and robbin went to go and look for my glasses :( no luck at all then we went into the skewl to get shellys id and almost got caught it was great. then we found jesi and kelsey and i told htem and they was like "oh we didnt hear you sorry" so yeah i get mad over stupid shit and i felt really bad but idk. and like yeah. so then we foudn nick and justin and walked back to nicks house without jacklyn and she called jesi and we had to wait at the corner for her. which wasnt bad. and hten we went back to nicks hosue and i called jenni and she was sposed to get "candy" for us and she said she wasnt gunna because she didnt have a ride so i needed to provide my own ride. so we didnt get those and i also felt bad for that because they wanted "candy" and yeah so i felt really really really bad. and then yeah so we ordered pizza and watched road trip. after that we went outside into the dark and and went into the park. we had to hide a lot because there was lots of police out.... and i jumped into a thorn bush so i have lots of cuts on me... oh well whatcha gunna do rite? that was pretty fun. then we went back to nicks and watched jackass the movie and then idk the rest of the nite was just liek bbbbbbbllllllllllaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh you know? and me n justin played volley ball with a beach ball. and yeah we were trying forever to get to sleep but finally we did. and yeah so then yeah and now im here with jesi :) my bestest friend!!!!!!! ok so i dont ahve a bestest friend but shes like one of my best friends so like yeah.... idk but shes awesome my shrink wants to meet her sum day lol. i think thats awesome. :) but she looks really bored rite now and idk i kinda feel bad taht im not helping her clean btu i mean what can i do? shes dusting something so theres not really anything i can do. so like yeah idk i feel bad. and omg i like someone i REALLY REALLY REALLY shuldnt like. but i cant help it i try not to like him but it just happens. and i mean like yeah i dont wanna i really dont but ugh! i dunno how to stop grrrrr!!!! i really dont wanna like him because i know i can NEVER have him. but aaahhhhh i hate this. wow this is one long ass entry. oh well. and hten so like yeah. idk. but lately ive been kinda sad and idk why i mean ive been taking my pills lately... well i stopped for a few days adn then i started again for like a day and then i didnt take em yesterday or taday so idk if thats it or what... but like yeah idk its weird. and i try to be happy but sometimes it just dont work. :( adn fuckin mike napoli ditched me yesterday he was sposed to meet me at sentry but he didnt grrrr hwo rude lol. but yeah idk ummmmmmmmm yeah oh and yeah idk what else to say...i feel dirty because jesi just showed me big dirt ewe
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| friday nite...saturday...and a lil bit of sunday..... |
[03 Oct 2004|10:02am] |
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ok yeah omg friday nite was soo much fun! me, shelly, jesi, kelsey, ryan, and nick were gunng go bowling but then shelly couldnt go so jesi and kelsey came over and we went by ourselves. and first while we was at my house we were eating and jesi and kelsey started making fun of my hambergers and fat rolls! lmfao its not as bad as it sounds. (ok heres the story on day stephanie roberts told this kid htat i hide hambergers in my fat rolls for 2 hours then eat them) me jesi and kelsey were making fun of her for saying something so stupid! and at the end of our little story thing this is how it was gunna go in 20 years im gunna be on a corner laying down on the ground cooking french fries in my greesy and hair and cooking hambergers inside my fat rolls and selling them to people. lmfao omg it was great then when we went to the bowling alley we met nick there and fucking jesi wouldnt stop laughing it was so great! and yeah so then nick paid for us to go bowling 40$... and yeah so we ended up going bowling and it was sooo fun. and yeah we just had fun even tho i lost EVERY game. we played midnite bowling, and nick almost got kicked out because he was using a 7 pound ball. lol. and yeah so anyways yeah we had a good time. then we all walked back over to kelseys grammas house and we jumped on the trampoline at 230-300 in the morning it was fun but we only jumped for like 5 minutes because it was so cold you know? and liek yeah and then we spent the nite at her grammas house. it was kewl. and ummm yeah and it was really cold in her hosue and and when i finally got warm and this dude came home and kicked me off the couch so i layed on the other one and finally got to sleep then i got up and went to the bathroom and then i watched the sun rise and fell back asleep then yeah. that was about that. and then yeah so umm yeah i dont wanna type now but yeah it was so fun
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| unluved... again |
[26 Sep 2004|05:39pm] |
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hey ok im on the fone with jeremy and umm yeah... ok this is gunna sound really fucking selfish but i miss him! omg he said that him n shelly are like idk... he wants her, more than shelina!!!!!!!!! ugh! i feel sooo soooo so ugh! you know? i really wanna talk to shelly about it but i dont you know? idk i dont wanna ruin our friendship either tho... i mean yeah you know? so its like hard. i think he likes her more than me!! i hate htis shit! ugh im gunna fucking cry! maybe i shuld just stop talking to jeremy and he just told me that he is getting msn messanger to send his pics to shelly!!! ugh... omg i hate this so fucking much im never telling anyone his number ANYMORE ever ever ever!!! i feel soo used i dunno why tho. its just like god damn you know? idk maybe ill jsut stop calling him and let shelly have him. she wants him that bad then he's all hers! she can have him all she wants. yeah i think thats what im gunna do bcuz i mean liek yeah. he has a gf and she has a bf so idk but fucking yeah, ill jsut stop talking to both of them. btu i dont wanna bcuz shelly's like a really good friend and all and god damn i HATE life!!!!!!!!!!! i think i'll just idk...... i hate EVERYTHING!!! i wanna shoot myself right now sooo badly or just idk die or soemthing you know? or at leased dissapear or some shit!
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| BORED AGAIN AND AGAIN |
[25 Sep 2004|07:58pm] |
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ok yeah so im bored again. and everyones either at ashleys party, keegans party or garrets party... cept me n shelly n eric. yeah.... i wasnt invited to ashleys party or keegans and m n shelly couldnt get a ride to garrets and my gramma wouldnt let me go anyways. so yeah!!!!!!!!!!!
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[25 Sep 2004|10:14am] |
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mmk so i went to shellys yesterday and it was a lot of fun first she came over for like 2 hours then we went to subway and we saw casey and then we went back to her house and she made me look really pretty. then we went to the football game. it was lots of fun. it was my first time smoking since liek 3-4 years ago. i mean damn it was soo great! and yeah, we were hanging out with matt downs, nick freebrink, justin martain, jesi jerde, kelsey kreuzer, nicole spors, liz mauritz, ryan singleton, and rianna and some other chic. and umm... i think thats it no wait and tony bergmann. i forgot about him lol. yeah nd umm yeah im so bored.... adn but yeah we had sooooo much fun! and fucking omg shelly was tickling my nipples!!! it didnt feel too bad either tho. lol. and yeah. on the way home it was pretty weird... oh and i found out why nick freebrink dont liek me.... he said its bcuz of a story tony told him. so i asked and he said that it was the whole fist thing with kaylee. (for those of u who dont know... me n my cousin kaylee were on the fone with tony and he told her to fist me and so she pretended to) we didnt really do it tho. i mean damn.. why the hell would we do that! especially on the fone. on top of htat when we were on the fone he said that he didnt believe us lol. sides that we were like really fucked up that ntie anyways lol. oh dude!!! justin let me play with his nipples! well it wasnt really playing it was more like rubbing them but oh well. yeah this will sound weird but i luv his nipples there so soft. idk why tho. lol yeah anyways.
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| ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[23 Sep 2004|04:32pm] |
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oh my god my gramma is being such a bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh!!!!!!!!!!! she says i cant sleep over at shellys friday nite bcuz my gramparents dont know her, rite? so yeah and know fuckin, yeah they say that if she comes over on friday for sum hours i STILL cant sleep over at her house! god that pisses me the fuck off they will know her so i dont get what the big fuckin deal is!!! goddamn!!!!!!! grrr.... im gunna scream! i dont get this shit i really dont. on another note. jillian's gone. :( she ran away sehs in milwaukee she CANT come back or else she will be sent to a foster home shelter thing ugh i hate this! damn and me n shelly were sposed to go to garrets party on saturday too damn wtf!!!! god shes gotta ruin everything now doesnt she damn sometimes i just hate her but other times id ont but sometimes i really do! god ugh i just wanna scream right now@!@!!!
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| jeremy and shelly |
[22 Sep 2004|07:07pm] |
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ok well.... umm... alrite you know how much i like jeremy right? well one nite i decided i wanted jeremy and shelly to meet bcuz well yeah actually i just wanted shelly to hear his voice. so we three wayed and now shelly talks to jeremy lots and i dont :( it makes me sad. i miss im. all he's really talked about lately was shelly this and shelly that. i mean i luv shelly i really do but ugh!! i know i prolly sound shellfish dont i? ugh i feel liek shit! i think im jealous... but ugh i want to tell shelly but i dont wanna make her mad at me you know? and i dont wanna sound mean or anything. and ugh i just called jeremy and hes like "guess who im on the other line with?" and im like "who?" and he goes "shelly" so i was like "ok ill call u back later then" and he goes "ok good" ugh i hate this! god what do i do?!?!?!?!?!?!
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| streetfair!!! |
[19 Sep 2004|08:16pm] |
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ok yeah so i went to jesi's today to go to the streetfair with her and yeah it was great, liz, kelsey, and ashley came over and we had funs. yeah i met this guy named nick freebert or something hes pretty kewl. idk hes kinda idk weird but hes kewl. and then theres justin hes kewl too :) yeah i like him! HE LET ME TOUCH HIS NIPPLE!!!!!!!!! haha lol yeah and umm yeah hes great! and then i actualy saw tony bergmann today omg 5'9" and a 8 pack ha ha MY ASS!!! lol hes UGLY!! lmao and i met this arther guy that saposedly got michelle pregnant. shes not pregnant what a liar why would she lie about that i mean wow thats jsut nto something to lie about!!!!!! im just like wtf why why why??? shes a slut... even tho shes a great friend and all shes a slut!! omg stephanie roberts is such a bitch!!! you know what she said to me today? ok we got into it and fuckin i said something like well at lease dim not a whore or something like that and she was like "well at leased i didnt fuck my brother!! i wasnt the one who told him to fuck bcuz i know thats what u prolly did" and im like "it wasnt my fault!!!" bcuz it wasnt... i dont think it was. and she was like "yeah it was u need to stop fuckin saying it wasnt bcuz we all know u wanted him to do it!!!!!!!!!!! so it is ur fault" man i was sooo about to kick her ass. i was going to too but i didnt bcuz like yeah if i get in anymroe trouble i get sent to a foster home (sposedly) so like yeah! i didnt so i went home to jesi's house and washed my hair and sat by teh lake, then kelsey came over and was liek "dont listen to that white trash im so proud of you for sticking up for urself" so yeah but idk what she said abotu dave kinda got me thinking again maybe it was my fault.... yeah so idk.... its kinda weird....
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[18 Sep 2004|10:30pm] |
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yeah ok im talking to jenni write now. so its kewl. and im really bored, and yeah i guess kaye and steph are afraid of jeremy, oh wells,
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| mommys birthday |
[18 Sep 2004|03:56pm] |
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yay!!! todays mommys birthday!!! lol. yeah ok so me n molly went to the mall and got her a few b-day presents and she doesnt know so its gunna be a suprise lol1!!! yeah as u can tell im happy, but yet im kinda sad bcuz jeremy's grounded from the fone for a week!!! how gay is that shit. and hes grounded bcuz he was on the fone instead of feedign his sisters.... lol ok i kinda understand that but for a week!!!!! i mean come on damn why that long you know? well liz and nicole kinda made up thats good, and matt and nicole are going out :) lol. oh yeah and i found out that i mite have manic depression disorder... :( thats not good. i dont think at leased. yeah and i finally got aim to work which kicks major ass!!! and yeah so its ALL good lol. and yeah omg i am soooo bored its saturday and i have NOTHIGN to do. lol yeah well actually i cant really do anything anyways so its all good.
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| everyone fuckin hates me |
[15 Sep 2004|04:42pm] |
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ok im a lil confused.... idk... ok i dont get why people hate me so much!!!!!!!!!! its just gay i mean like every single guy or sometimes girl that i meet they always end up hating me within like the first 2 weeks i meet them. like daivd edwards, i dont talk to him a lot i hardly even knwo him and he hardly even knows me and he hates me.... well at leased thats what nick stuckart says and he also says that david paid nick 5$ to tell me im hott. i mean am i really THAT ugly?!?!?!?!?! i feel so stupid, adn dirty, and nasty, and icky. i dont know why and i know i shouldnt let this faze me at all but idk its jsut weird....i mean like im all sad all of a sudden too.... its just strange.......... im not sure jesi say's that shes gunna talk ta david in the hall tomarrow but idk i think he'll prolly say "yeah i do hate her" or soemthign liek you know? bcuz he does and i dont kwno why. liek he dont sit with us at lunch anymore either what is so fuckin wrong with me that everyone starts to hate me? no matter how nice i am to them or what i do for them its like fuckin gay.... i mean really what is it that i do wrong? is it the way i look? the way i dress? the way i act? idk i dont get it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! goddamn why cant peopel just fuckin stop hating me i hate this when they hate me. i cant stand it. i mean everyone thinx i dont care btu sometimes i do. i mean im just sick of always being hated!!! its gay as hell i mean write now i just want to die and see if anyone notices.... i bet they wont!!!! and if they did they would prolly just be like "oh sehs dead big deal" you know? oh god i hate this so much errr its so stupid i hate peoepl so much and they wounder why i cut myself?
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| grrr..... |
[13 Sep 2004|04:33pm] |
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ok hey, yeah matt is here agian.... weird.... there kinda creepy ok so me n kari are talking about eating each others ice cream but its all good yeah, and yeah, idk its kinda creepy but yeah at leased they didnt have sex again!!!! lmao me n jesi did tho lmao!!! yeah. well ima write later
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| jeremy |
[12 Sep 2004|09:18pm] |
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ok so i got off the fone with jeremy again like 20 minutes ago omg i luv him soooooooooo much!!!!!! yeah hes gunna come visit me soon :) i luv him i am so glad i got ungrounded today. for those of u you who dont know what jeremy looks like ill tell ya. he has dishwater blonde hair, sky blue eyes, hes 5'8" tall i think he weighs 160 pounds. and umm hes on the football so he has a GREAT body!!! yeah he lives in manistique michigan and i luv him. hes so nice and sweet and great. lol. sorry ive never had a guy be this nice to me before. its weird jeremy makes me feel different. he makes me feel loved, adn wanted, and shit you know? its like.... idk he always says he loves me and that im pretty and allt his other stuff. and i know he doesnt just want sex because he said he'd do it whenever i wanted not just when he wanted, adn that even if i wasnt ready to do it he would wait for me. (hes 17 turning 18 in 4 days just so u knwo) and i think that kicks ass!!! and hes just so nice and everything adn sooo sexi!!!! and when i write him letter he actually writes back which is awesome and he writes me poems and stuffs. its great he makes me so happy, its like when i think of him i dont need my "happy pills" he makes me happy. ive never felt this way about anyone. not even tom, or mike, or chris. its just such a great feeling. and like how i get nervous and scared around older guys (especially casey...... idk why he looks liek a rapist) and i dont feel that way around him. i feel so protected you know? so luved and liek nothing could hurt me EVER when im with him. i dont knwo i just luv it so much i liek cant explain it!!!! i feel so great when im with him. its creepy i feel so positive. just idk its really really hard to explain but i wish everyone could feel the way i feel with him. (like just not with him lol) yeah and then they could feel just as good as i do and itd be all good and nothing bad would hardly ever happen. you know? well anwyas and hes really really great. idk why i luv him like well at leased i think i do but i dk for sure. but yeah hes so so so ugh i wish i coudl explain it. i mean he like doesnt scare me at all and liek hes like the sweetest guy you could ever meet and yet at the same time he would protect you for anything! hes really strong and yeah so like yeah and ugh i jsut cant stop thinking about him :) i really think i really think i lvoe him. i cant stop thinking about him. liek im not really sure but its true. i think i really really do love him. how do i know if he feels the same way tho? im not sure but hes always really nice and sweet and hes gunna coem visit me sometime :) thats gunna be great and im gunna luv it!!!! bcuz i luv him
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[10 Sep 2004|07:18pm] |
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ummm yeah ok today is friday and yeah.... im sooo fuckin bored!!!!!!!!!!! grr everyone has something do to on friday nite but me?!?!?! i have to go to a stupid pinic tomarrow with my familiy how gay eh?
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| court....... |
[09 Sep 2004|05:37pm] |
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well ok u know how i had court today well umm we got there and i saw dave... it reminded me of matt tho... like rite when i saw him idk... anyways... yeah it was really scary at first and shit. i told them i woudlnt talk. so then my gramma was all like "would u tlak if u had af riend here iwth you?" adn iw as liek "yeah" bcuz it wouldnt make me feel so alone u know? and then she was like "what abnout jesi?": so yeah jesi's mite go with me next time to talk about it in detail :-/ i dont wanna
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| court.... |
[09 Sep 2004|06:49am] |
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ok so i have to go to court this morning.... which really isnt kewl at all!! and like yeah its at 830 am so i get to miss part of skewl but still then i have to go back... man i really cant do this.... i just cant, i dont know how im gunna get thru it, jesi and kelsey both said that i can do it, but idk its really hard i mean i have to face him again. i dont think i could do that.... i just i dont wanna ... im scared adn i dont know what to do.. you know? i just wish that it never happened that none of this never happened and it was never true!!!! u know? its gunna be so hard, telling everyone in court..... im just so ugh well its 7 and i have to be ready by 8 so ill write later and tell ya how it went....
so ummm by
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| owy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 |
[07 Sep 2004|06:09pm] |
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ok yeha.... today toally sucked ass!!!! it was all good till andy threatended tot stab me with a knife. i was liek yeah w.e andy, go eat your dads sticky cleavage with a spoon (which i got from jesi lmao!! thnx jesi) adn then yeah i fell down the hill and sprained my ancle and i didnt think anything of it so i just left it and 5th hour i went to the healthroom adn she said that it hurts more now bczu i didnt stay off it when it happened so yeah adn rite now it hurts like a bitch!!! and fucking yeah and at lunch today kc sat with us. i dont really have that big of a problem with him like he didnt really do anything to me to make me scared of him but he just gives me a creepy feeling its really hard to explain its like, idk he could like hurt me or omething adn id ont like that feeling you know? adn like yeah. so idk, adn at lunch i sat next to david which was kewl, only i hardly talked to him bcuz yeah, and michelle ws all liek touching davids nipples today!!!! errrr!!! me no like!!!!! lol yeah no sorry, i have a thing for david but idk i dont think he likes me at all but thats just me i could be totally rite or totally wrong so idk, adn yeah like ok every guy i ever liked hates em know or started to hate me when they found out i liked em and yeah so i dont want that to happen between me n david so i guess its just better for me to not tell him adn have a secret crush on him. sides he'll prolly end up going out with michelle which i hate bcuz ugh like no fence i luv her and all sehs a great friend but shes too big of a fucking slut and i hate it!!!!
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| sunday... |
[05 Sep 2004|02:20pm] |
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ok yeah today is sucky... yeah andys home and hes being a total ass hole!!! god u know sometimes i just wanna kill him!!!!!!!!! but oh well... i cant so whatcha gunna go? rite? yeah and i mite go to jesi jerde's hosue today so yeah thats kewl. it depends when my gramma and grampa get home if there not too tired. but yeah this cant be a real long entry bcuz i have to sweep the kitchen floor by 245 and its 221 rite now so i dont have a lot of time as u can see... so yeah... and today i didnt really do anything interesting i broke andy's door tho. thats always fun. ok its not how it sounds... this si what happened. he was in here and i needed the fone or the computer it didnt really matter which one bcuz the computer for obvious reasons and the fone so i could call andrew and see if hes ok (he lives in datona beach florida) so yeah i wanted to see how he was doing. and yeah but when i knocked on the door andy wouldnt answer it bcuz thats just the way he is... he wont answer bcuz he knows its me. so anwyas then i try to walk in and he has like 2 chairs and the bed in front of the door and fucking yeah so i pushed against the door adn almost got it open but then the hinge broke off the door. idk if that owuld really be considered breaking the door bcuz we fixed it rite away so yeah you know? and yeah my grammparents arent home yet so thats good... well kinda. and yeah... oh i got a letter from amy yesterday... yeah shes like... doesnt want me to cut no more. a lot of peopel dont want me to. i wanna stop really badly but its really addicting and hard... you know? its like ugh i try to hide the sizzors and shit but it just dont work... idk i get vary confuzed, but yeah, and i guess yeah, and ugh i cant wait for teusday!! i can leave this fuckin house!! ugh i cant stand being here i have to leave sometime soon!!i have to get outta here!!! man ihope i can go tno jesi's i really do!!!!!!well.... its 226 so ima have to let u go and ima go like sweep now then i wont have to do it later then ill bb so yeah bye
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